Keep me company while my girl is gone

So the winter is starting and it's been cruel thus far. My only good experience thus far was Jenn's birthday which was a long time coming (3 years to be exact). Since then I've dealt with the loss of Rambo (the greatest running back in Packer and Madden history) and the loss of thanksgiving dinner. Also my only happy place is gone right now due to my piggy being out of the country on personal business. I'm so sad, I never realized how miserable I get when I have no one to talk to, to say good night to... I feel so crappy and lonely. I mean I have dealt with distance before, but nothing to where I couldn't contact her, it's really shitty cuz I'm a very paranoid person. I think the worst of the world because I've seen the worst of the world so I'm always scared something bad is gonna happen. I shouldn't worry because she is with her family, they raised her and should be able to protect her... but that doesn't give me peace of mind because in my head the only one who can truly keep the ugly and bad stuff away from her... is me.
I can't sleep at night and I find myself calling her phone just to hear her voice in her voicemail. It's probably pathetic but it's the only way I can keep myself sane and get any sleep. I think since she's left I've garnered about 5 hours sleep. That's five hours in 3 days. I know I'm going to start breaking down eventually but it won't matter, I won't get decent sleep until she arrives at LAX and gives me a call. Then I can get some sleep, then I can be at peace. It's terrible what love will do to a man, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I'd rather lose sleep over her than get a good nights sleep alone. I just hope she gets back soon because I have a test next wednesday and need to start focusing. The funny thing is I haven't accomplished much since she left, other than painting my house. I spent all day sunday wandering around, ate dinner with my mom and played some madden. Then monday I went through the whole court system (sucked) and played some more madden. Today I will probably go home after work and bring on the madden again. I hope to have my new linebacker at midseason by thanksgiving. Considering I just started the season (played all of preseason and every single training camp practice) that's about 15 hours into the game already. To get to halfway point I'll need another 20 hours. But considering I don't have much to do on thanksgiving... that sounds doable. Thank goodness for Madden, otherwise... I would have gone mad with Jenn out of town.
Thank you EA (never in a million years would I have imagined thanking the devil) for keeping me company

Joe is tired and stressed