wasting time and going nowhere

So I'm sitting here wondering where the fuck I went wrong? 24 years old... no degree, no kids, no marriage, longest job held was a part timer for 2 years. I sit and wonder... "why am I alive, why haven't I put myself out of misery already?" and then it hits me... potential.. yeah so they say I have it, but do I use it? I won't know the answer to this question until much later, much much later. I hear the word so often that it's almost cliche, how I find a way to impress people is beyond me but somehow I do. I start to feel like I'm one big fucking sham and then it hits me, "I can't be, I've got too many believers that can't be let down" so I'm going on for that. The only problem is that inspiration like that isn't flowing through you like a river and comes and goes, probably why I'm in the position I'm in. I keep hoping I'm a late bloomer and will finally kick it in to overdrive and start kicking ass like I'm told I can. But what if I can't? What if I'm only all that you see, potential and nothing more. Depressing yes, but I can't complain because I got clothes on my back, a roof over my head and food on my plate. Well raise your glasses everyone... it's time for me to go after another dream... let's see how long until I fail this time eh? Or maybe I'll prove everyone right this time, and handle this shit and be satisfied knowing I followed through just once. I guess we'll just have to find out.

Gi Joe out..