Why is it that I'm so far behind? Was it of my own doing? Was it just in the cards? I sometimes wonder, is the situation I am faced with of my choosing or was it forced onto me. I hear people say you make your own choices and nobody can force you to do something you don't want to. I beg to differ on that one. I never chose to go to HS, or Junior High, that choice was made for me by my parents and the government. I never chose to be screwed by financial aid from the getgo, they made that choice for me. My first quarter of college I met kids who had millionaire parents who were getting more financial aid than me. Sometimes I think that I did something bad and karma came back to get me. Other times I think someone did something bad to me (giving me crap aid) and hopefully they got what was coming to them. Anyways, from that day on I struggled to go to school, trudged as far as I could and bailed whenever I couldn't afford it. 6 years later I see my errors, shoulda taken a loan out and said oh well. It would have been much easier for me, and I'd be out by now paying that crapass loan off. Now I gotta deal with the consequences of lagging, feeling behind.
I hope that I can pull myself out of this ditch, and get where I want to go. I am tired of scraping, tired of having to choose between eating lunch today, or buying gas tomorrow.
Yo Joe is out right now, please leave a message at the beep. *Beep*
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