Stare at the Sun

I sit here clutching useless lists
And keys for doors that don't exist
I crack my teeth on pearls
I tear into the history
Show me what it means to me in this world
Yeah in this world

'Cause I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind

I see the parts but not the whole
I study saints and scholars both
No perfect plan unfurls
Do I trust my heart or just my mind
Why is truth so hard to find in this world
Yeah in this world

'Cause I am due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes
Till I understand or go blind (till I understand or go blind)

I know that there's a point I've missed
A shrine or stone I haven't kissed
A scar that never graced my wrist
A mirror that hasn't met my fist
But I can't help feeling like I'm

Due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign (waiting for a sign)
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes (and I won't close my eyes)

Due for a miracle
I'm waiting for a sign
I'll stare straight into the sun
And I won't close my eyes

I'm pretty sure we all feel like this sometime, hell I feel like this every day (and believe me i'm stubborn enough to stare until I go blind or understand). Everyone waits for the dare to be great opportunity.. some so they can run away from it, some because they wish to take it by the horns and ride it into the sunset. My whole life I've waited for it so I could take it to the promised land. Now I'm thinking that it may have passed right by me without me ever so much as looking. I had a great life, now I look at what I have and the choices I made and think maybe I might have fucked myself over... but I can't be too sure so I sit here waiting for my auspicious moment to come.

Onto other things, I'm shopping for a digital camcorder due to my urge to start videotaping some stuff that goes on in my life. I'm not sure if it's because I want to have some record of my doings while I'm in this stage of my life or if it's something that I want to do just cuz. My goal is to have it ASAP cuz I'm missing out on some valuable footage.

Joe out...