Where is the love???

I just wish I could find some answers to all the madness that is surrounding me right now. I think I'm going to start working out more often and I just got back from signing up at a gym just to assure that (when you are paying a nice expensive premium and you're dirt poor you tend to get your most for the money). I hope that I can get in shape cuz I look at myself and see a shell of who I was. I know people change and I welcome that, but certain aspects shouldn't change. Like me being a fatty... WHAT THE FUCK?!?! I am not supposed to be a porker, so I'm going to have fix that crap.

On a high note, Jay gave me the ultimate compliment... "Paul, you are low maintenance" WOO HOO!! Nothing like a confidence booster like that to make you feel better when you think everything has gone to hell. I am going to have to say that anyone who can be happy with rice and beans is alright in my book.

I wonder what is going to be the hardest thing for me to face in the upcoming year. Whatever it may be I hope I am ready to take it balls to the wall and not look back at all.

I've been feeling really shitty lately cuz I haven't been up to Norcal to visit Bender recently but he says he's busy soI guess I can feel a little better. I will be going up soon cuz I want to get out of LA for a while and go get smashed in Norcal with my main hombre.

Getting the inspiration to be skinny is half the battle, getting skinny is the other half (the harder half)