Perchance to dream

I just had an incredibly refreshing experience/conversation piece with a friend.

bender: do you want to play along for a couple of minutes?
bender: I'm having this weird thought
bender: you'd be a librarian
bender: you know the type...hot, horn-rimmed glasses with hair pinned up in a french braid
bender: and i'd be the ghetto pizza boy
bender: that makes pizza the old fashioned way
special friend: ok
bender: tossing up dough to passerbys
bender: and every few days I stop by
bender: to ask for recommendations
bender: to try to improve myself
bender: kind of like in sweet home alabama
bender: and each time, it would be a very sensual experience
bender: you picking through my brain
bender: trying to find a niche
bender: something that you can add a little bit of yourself into
bender: because it's in your head too
bender: and you'd be opening my head like a book
bender: my life
bender: and sharing experiences with me
bender: except, I'd be experiencing it in a differnet way
bender: the way that we all experiences things differently
special friend: uh huh
bender: and this would go on for a while
bender: and I'd see you
bender: you'd be in a coffee shop reading a book
bender: and I'd be walking by
bender: make eye contact
bender: and join you
bender: because you'd be sitting on a stool, facing the window
bender: and I walk in
bender: and we have this amazing conversation
bender: and we keep bumping into each other
special friend: uh huh
bender: ...i'm drawing a blank
bender: need your help to finish this story
bender: and one day you come into my pizza shop
bender: with your intellectual friends
bender: and i'd be embarrassed
bender: in my white t-shirt and white apron
bender: with pizza sauce on my shirt
bender: and I'd have a fluffy hat
bender: you try to say hi
bender: something
bender: but i escape to the back
bender: and i smoke a cigarette
bender: this isn't a ghetto alley
bender: although it is an alley nonetheless
bender: it's one of those new york alleys
bender: where there is smoke rising from the sewage grates
bender: and out of the corner of my eye
bender: i see you leaving
bender: walking away with your friends
bender: you say bye to a friend in particular
bender: a man
bender: with thick black hair
bender: and you pull away with extended arms
bender: letting your fingers linger
bender: just oh so long
bender: and it dangles and you walk away
bender: because you see me
bender: and i nervously drop my cigarette and put it out
bender: lean against the brick wall
bender: with one knee flexed
bender: oh...we'll say the left
bender: and you'll come up to me
bender: we're in an alley, but a light falls over your eyes
bender: and you subtly move aside a lock of hair that has fallen over your forehead
bender: and you smile
bender: ...
bender: what do you say?
bender: the camera zooms out
bender: and we see the couple talking
bender: not the intellectual talk
bender: because she is in his zone now
bender: but he is no longer in his comfort zone
bender: what is it about this mysterious woman the bewitches him
bender: what does he fear?
bender: the next scene isn't like oh so many others
special friend: he fears the loss of mystery
bender: perhaps...
special friend: the intrusion of intimacy
bender: it doesn't start with the couple waking up next to each other
bender: with a rose on his pillow
special friend: once he starts talking to her, he loses the fantasy he has built up around her
bender: perhaps...
bender: he stop coming by the library
bender: she wonders
bender: what happened?
bender: was it something I said?
special friend: hmm but what did she say?
bender: and so they drift apart
special friend: what has she said
bender: I wonder myself
bender: some time later, she is sitting in front of her computer at work
bender: distracted
bender: she twirls her hair
bender: and spins around her chair
bender: yet she can't shake the feeling
bender: that she has lost something
bender: something she treasured
bender: her friends are going out that night
bender: despite her wish to stay in and read jane austin, they drag her out
bender: cut to a house party
bender: a wine and cheese party would make more sense
bender: no, this is a posh club
bender: and she is walking down the stairs and she makes eye contact
bender: with a familiar set of eyes
bender: that penetrate into her soul
bender: and she stops dead in her tracks
special friend: the man with black hair?
special friend: or you?
bender: time stands still
bender: we'll say the man with black hair
bender: in no time, if it's me, it's gonna be the man with no hair
bender: should she go say hello?
bender: she stumbles down the stairs
bender: goes to the bar
bender: and orders up a cosmo
bender: it's not fate
bender: the gentleman hadn't requested a drink be brought for her
bender: she slumps a tad
bender: and she stirs her drink
bender: maybe it was all in her head
bender: we can go two ways
bender: she can feel a tap on her shoulder
bender: or...she can sit there wondering the whole night
bender: she goes home
bender: she remembers faces
special friend: its too easy if someone taps her
bender: people had come up to talk to her
special friend: predictable
bender: but none too familiar
bender: Years later, she has moved on
bender: she works writing stories
bender: you submits shorts to the new yorker
bender: doing quite well for herself
bender: owns her own flat
bender: she is sitting in her lazy-boy
bender: reading the newspaper when a review catches her eye
bender: a new play receiving wide acclaim
bender: a new playwright
bender: sure, why not
bender: she puts it off for a while
bender: and a friend mentions it again
bender: strange
bender: she moves to watch the play
bender: imagine the ahmanson
bender: palace of concrete
bender: and she walks by water
bender: with light beaming from underwater lamps
bender: carrying her coat over her forearm
bender: the play...it all seems so familiar
bender: too close to be deja vu
bender: it strikes a chord within her
bender: and stirs something
bender: a flicker of life
bender: of light
bender: that is all so often doused
bender: what do you do?
special friend: i wander
special friend: looking for the familiar set of eyes
special friend: i'd get frantic
special friend: if i was unable to find something
special friend: i'd ask
special friend: but i'd need to see the rest of play...
special friend: a moment of de ja vu is normal
special friend: happens frequently
bender: you assume that it's intermission
special friend: mmm i see
special friend: go to make a fone call
special friend: to another girlfriend
special friend: a close friend, who was with me at the pizza place that one day perhaps?
special friend: or even call the man with black hair
bender: I don't know...
special friend: marvel at the coincidence
bender: All so new, yet all so familiar
bender: and in the end, all we're left with is what we started with in the first place. A feeling
bender: thank you for going on a ride with me

how I'm feeling right now...
Counting Crows - Raining in Baltimore
I need a sunburn...