guess who's back, back again... pablo's back... tell a friend

So this week/weekend was quite a pleasant one. I got the new ps2 game Guitar Hero, and since doing so have been completely addicted to it. I have the finger cramps to prove it. Along with that I found myself thoroughly intoxicated on saturday night after a night of pool and guitar hero. I also have made it a habit to go out and do chores alone. Reason being is I hate going out alone, but love to be alone when I'm at home. I guess I hate being in the world alone, not sure why... maybe I'm scared of the world, or scared of what I might do while I'm alone. Regardless it's a habit that must be kicked, because I feel that due to my stupid insecurity I am so needy for a relationship. It's all these little tidbits that you normally don't accredit to your dependencies that actually accrue for most of our faults. I figure if I can beat this, I can beat the other things and maybe when the right girl comes along... I'll be mature and man enough to swoon her to the dark side and have a nice meaningful relationship.

Speaking of women... this girl... we'll call her number A(hehe) keeps popping into my life and out of it. She gives me the signs she cares and that makes me want to just show up outside her house and say Let's rock, then the next second she is giving me the cold shoulder and basically telling me to give up (well not literally saying it but just by her actions). So girl number A is an awesome chica and someone I know that I get along with, but we also have our differences. I just wish she would make her mind up because if she wants to try it with me fine... if she doesn't she should just stop talking to me. I left the door open to her but I'm not gonna hold my breath. Girl A if you ever read this... just come over, have a talk with me over a nice cup of coffee bean and make your damn decision and we'll go from there. Too bad she doesn't read this... sigh...

I think being a caveman is so awesome. Everything was so simple... eat and breed. That was it... sure you had to survive the land and various predators but dang man... eat and breed. I wonder if cavemen loved? If so... then it wouldn't be so awesome because my whole awesome idea was based on lack of emotions. Ever watch clan of the cave bear... great movie.

Stop messing with Joe's heart...