strange

So I've resigned myself to the fact that I'm a nice guy, despite my multiple faux attempts at trying to be an asshole. It ain't me.

Today was an interesting day. Got a chance to study with a nice gal. We had some great conversation and chemistry. I think she just has great chemistry with everyone. Plus, I don't want to be a desperate guy who jumps on any gal who shows him some attention. She used to date a friend of mine a while back, so I'm gonna stay clear of this. I really could use a little company though. Whatever.

I think I'm gonna stop thinking about it and worry about it if it starts to become an issue when I work with her in gyn/onc. Women are bad for me. I'm gonna wash my hands of this one for a while.

-bender

p.s. I start wards for peds today. Between inpatient wards and heme/onc, I'm gonna start seeing some very sick kids. I'm praying for fortitude, the strength to cry, laugh and pray with those kids, and the wisdom to know when to step back and let things run their course. I'm sure if I'm lacking in any of these depts, a resident will slap me and let me know.