Lightning Crashes

Dang, it's been one heck of a busy month.

So school has been great to me. I'm on the competition team there and will be going to Vegas in march (fingers crossed), long beach and some other places. Just been burying my face in my books and trying to not hang out. It is so sad to call my boys and not be able to go out with them cuz I have a paper to write. Argh, I'm not used to this school shit, and it gets to be annoying sometimes but you know what, I am loving it.

I was going to write about some stuff but decided to save it for another time. I think I'll just rant on coffee shops right now. I DON'T understand how people can go to coffee shops to study, it's just the stupidest thing I've ever heard of. It's super loud with the steamers and blenders, people talking super loud, babies crying... the list just goes on. I literally have looked around the world for a good coffee shop to study at, because... well libraries are too quiet for me (I know, I'm a super picky bitch when it comes to this). Bah, well... anyways... my cousin showed me a really awesome place. It used to be an old mortuary, and it's been converted to a big place for art shows and parties. They sell coffee, food, and ice cream with great enthusiasm. The people there are awesome and very friendly, it's really super big, so they have rooms set up just for studying and it's super quiet. The kicker is this... it's literally 5 minutes away. OMG, I think I died and found my new super secret hangout place. The weird thing is, the coffee they serve is from my cousins coffee roasting company, so I get that familiar flavor. Seriously... life has been so awesome and perfect lately, I'm almost scared that I'm gonna let my guard down and there will be hell to pay.

I have been enjoying everything a lot lately and trying to change the things I dislike about myself (it's very hard) and trying to be a lot more optimistic about things. It's somewhat working for me, but I find certain people bring out the bad in me... they almost try to draw it from me. I find the more and more I am away from these people... the happier I've been. I could use your input Bender, cuz your opinion is probably the only one I value. Well I hope you are ok, and surviving at Kaiser. Keep your head up.

Ironing it up...