So it has been a really brutal month. I made a lot of stupid mistakes and most of the heat and yelling that I received was well deserved. In the beginning, I was worried about working with a gunner that lonecoyote and I had talked about. It turns out that he is actually a really nice guy, albeit socially awkward. I think most people are actually really nice if given the chance. This past week in particular was especially brutal. Due to scheduling problems and unforeseen accidents, we were pulling 4am-8+pm days across the board without any days off for the past month. Tensions ran high and there was a lot of anger going around. On Friday, I made a stupid suggestion and one of the residents exploded at me in the MICU. Gunner boy was the first one to come to my aid, put an arm on my shoulder and let me know that everything was ok. He stood up for me and as far as I'm concerned, he is ok in my books. I think he might have been difficult to work with on internal medicine because he wants to go into heme/onc and probably felt threatened. I'm not justifying his past, just giving credit where it's due regardless of past behavior. As tired as I am, I have no complaints. I love what I do, it's just the hours. I've seen the hours turn really nice people into monsters, but it has brought out some of the best of us on the same occasions. I know most of you guys aren't religious, but I attribute all that is good to my creator. There is a lot of shit going on in this world, but times like this I'm reminded that we are all created good on the inside.
-bender
Glad to hear it turned out well.
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