So it's been one helluva ride lately. Been feeling a little better thanks to an ass whooping I received by some friends. I guess Joe went into Barbie mode where he/she just shuts down. Apparently that will happen when Joe stops taking any consideration for himself and ignores his own needs and wants for a long time. I did it for a long time with my past battleaxe (if I need to explain this term... I have a putaso waiting for you). Then when I started to spoil myself a little, I started feeling bad and went back into the Barbie mode... very retarded of me but I have been telling everyone that I knew something was wrong with me. I don't think I've quite solved it, but at least I made myself feel better. Thanks to bender, che, kim, connie and monica... yous all my jiggas.
So I was wondering... now that Joe needs to get out on the market what should he be looking for... then I started to look around and I thought to myself, I need a girl that treats me better than my good friends. It's funny though, but both my female friends treat me like a king compared to my ex battleaxe. And they treat their bf's 50X better than they treat me... my head almost sploded when I realized this. I've never had a cooked meal before where I wasn't required to do something extra special to deserve it as a reward... it was like... wait you are going to cook me food just cuz you care about me.... WTF?!?! SPLOSION...
Never had a massage before, not once... gave them all the time but never received one. Well my friends have no problem saying... here lie down and I'll get that back pain out. WTF!!! SPLOSION
So I guess I have way higher standards now, which is weird cuz I'm like... I already thought I had unrealistic standards. But honestly, how can I expect to spend time with someone who doesn't treat me better than my friends. How do you justify spending time with a girl who wouldn't do more for you than your friends, I mean it's like you would rather eat some ground beef over filet... ya know? NO competition....
I went running yesterday, was hella fun and relaxing. Might go backpacking tomorrow... trying to stay active because I saw some pics of me back in the days... DAMN I was a skinny sexy sonnuvabitch. I know I can't get to that point again, but hey you gotta aim high so you fall high.
Joe is out, and feeling much better... he just hopes that drama stays back for a bit so he can gather strength up. But if it doesn't... he's cool cuz Barbie is dead and Joe "should be able to handle it"
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