She's got whatever It is

Hey Bro,

Wow, it's been a long time since we've posted on this thing.

First things first. Congratulations again on getting engaged! It's about time. She's awesome and I'm very happy for you guys. It was good to see you during break. Sorry I was such a wimp, I'm just tired all the time. I'll be sure to go up and visit you later this winter.

Anyhow, I've been at children's hospital LA this past month. It's been a nice break from county. The hours are a lot nicer and so are the people. I've made a lot of friends in and about the hospital, so I've been having fun. I've been operating my ass off doing small cases like circumcisions to back to back living donor kidney transplants. All in all, it's been a humbling experience. I'm in a new environment and there's always a lot of stuff going on. I've been trying my best, but I keep forgetting small details, names, faces, etc.

It's hard to be a good surgeon...you have to know all the medicine, but also kick ass in the operating room. I'm been getting reamed lately for my mistakes and it's a little tough because I've been beating myself up over all of my mistakes...probably a little more than I should. It's hard to be on top of your game all the time. I'm kind of tired, every once in a while you're tempted to take a shortcut, not look up a lab/study, miss a detail on the physical exam. While these things are all understandable, they're not really forgiveable. I'm thinking I might want to do pediatric urology, but I'm not sure I'm cut out for it. The guys I work with are a moody bunch, but they're really in a league of their own. I've been feeling really dumb a lot lately. I know I'm a pretty smart guy, but it's been a humbling month. I'm tired bro.

Long distance is a bit rough too. Gonna see my girl this weekend for the first time in 3 months. Pretty stoked about that. A guy's got needs - somebody to watch movies with on the weekend, try out new restaurants around town, take to holiday parties, etc. LD is hard.

I've been listening to a lot of country again. I've listened to this song about 200 times this month, according to iTunes.



Talk to you soon bro

-bender