Midnight Train....

Today was one bizarre day...

I can honestly say that I'm doing alright, I'm not sitting here wishing for someone else's life, I'm just wishing I was more ambitious and less selfish.

I've never been one who does something for others, I never had those types of goals. I'm no bender, I can't dedicate my life to helping others, putting myself through hell just so I can spend the rest of my life being exposed to people who are not well. I'm no saint, and I'm no genius.

The only time in my life I've felt accomplished is when I did grunt work. I feel more accomplished in one day of baking and whipping and discussing random topics with customers than I ever did at Sony, or working for Bentley's legal team. I can say I am thankful to the big man upstairs. He has always taken care of me, and gave me enough brains and the mouth to con both the smart and dumb into thinking I'm much more than I am. The only problem is now I want to be what I say I can be, I want to be the best at what I do.

spent the whole day thinking about how much I complicate everything and how I need to take a step back and enjoy this shit, cuz it'll all be gone eventually.

joe over and out

P.S. Listening to stories of gangbanging druggy orgies can be quite inspiring, I mean sure it aint my thing but if it makes them happy... do da damn ding.