hmm....

Looking over some of my past posts, I sound like an asshole. It wasn't quite what I had meant when I wrote them and I hope that I didn't offend anyone. For some reason or another, probably ego, surgical subspecialties tend to attract a lot of people who are dicks or have strange personalities. That plus them being under a lot of pressure and stress, people react in pretty mean ways. It doesn't justify their actions, but it happens. A lot of people have ended up getting the short end of the stick on the service and it sucks. As super type-A people, we all have severe insecurities and it's rough when those are brought out, teased or straight up stomped on.

At the end of the day have we (1) improved someone's life (2) provided some modicum of comfort (3) done everything within our power to provide the best care that we know how or consulted in order to do so. I'm just trying to be myself while doing all of the above. I want to get out there while the sun is still out and ride my bike and eat mexican food and ice cream.

my residents:
pat: he is kind of like scott. was an eco geek like me...following animal trails and stuff. played rugby in college and went to med school in DC. He is married to a lawyer and wants to settle down in the bay.
jon: he likes to run when he has time. married.
nick: married with children. just wants to get home and be with his family.

We're all lost and trying to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I just realized that I haven't called my parents in like 2 weeks. Time flies, and then no need to endure anymore, time dies...touche.

-bender