sup foo,
So I made it through my first two rotations. I went to steve and barry's today with rabbit. They were having t-shirt sales. Was gonna get you a gi-joe and captn crunch shirt, but I couldn't find the captain crunch to get you the 2-fer.
I just finished up a month on orthopedic surgery. The hours were a little better than my previous rotation, but I would've much preferred more hours and a team that I gelled with a little more. There were 5 of us on the team, but I almost never saw the rest of the team around. They pretty much ignored me and I ate alone most of the time. There was not a single person on the squad that I connected with...man, felt like such a loser. They'd text page me whenever they needed anything, otherwise, I was pretty much alone on the floor all day. Even when shit went down, my chief bailed on me. I ended up handling an upper GI bleeder who had a PE and a septic shock guy I was cross-covering on my own.
I think I'm just pretty tired of being in the hospital. I haven't been compliant with my hours since I started. No single day is bad enough that it makes me want to throw in the towel, but daily grind definitely challenges you to the core. I guess it's like that with every job. I've just gotta suck it up and stop being such a wimp about it.
I'm looking forward to this month off. I'm studying to take step 3 of my licensing exam, which is actually a lot more fun than busting my ass on the hospital floor. Gonna take a real vacation for labor day, and take a week to learn how to surf. Bought a wetsuit. Just need a board. Might go out to visit gigi since she is out in san clemente, your old surf joint.
Otherwise, it's been pretty good. Living at home has been good to me. I've opened up a long term savings account to put away what I would've normally spent on rent every month. I eat lots of korean food and my laundry gets taken care of. I've been taking my parents out to nice eats, we work out together at night and I've found a nice little movie theater in highland park where admission is only $3. Overall, it's been nice. Don't have too many peeps to hang out with out here. Gonna have to start reaching back and calling old peeps.
On a sidenote, I've realized that I'm not such a nice guy. When I'm totally wiped out and my pager is going off more than 30 times an hour during nursing shift changes, it's hard to stay cool. I've lost it a few times, nothing crazy, but far short of professional. Hopefully I don't get written up. Even the patients and their families are starting to get to me. I guess it's good that I've got a vacation early. I think I need to regroup and focus on what I'm doing and who my customers are...take another long hard look at the person that I want to be, then focus on what I need to do to get there.
-bender
