Miss you man..

Its been so long since I've written in here, I think it was my wedding. The last big impacting event in my life. So sad that this current blog is to help me put out my thoughts and feelings for the recent impact in my life.

Adam I hope you knew I loved you man. You were like 1 of 3 or so guys that I met up here in Washington that I could say was a friend. Hanging out was always fun, and we always had our heated discussions, especially when it came to you and your beloved Broncos. I think I'll always be a bronco fan after meeting you. Still have no clue why you loved them, but boy did you.

I'll never understand why you carried so many demons, and found it so hard to let go of the small stuff. I guess we were both similar in that fashion, but ultimately where I was able to let things go, you just couldn't. You had your good streaks and your bad streaks but were always able to clean your shit up and get your business taken care of.

I will always wonder if I was a good enough friend, if I listened enough, or did enough for you. I tried like hell to help you in your fight and always tried to keep in touch when you left the restaurant. You were one of the hardest workers that I ever met, even if you refused to make a pizza.

When we first met you thought I was a snot nosed punk who couldn't boil a pot of water to save my own ass, and I thought you were just another dishwasher/janitor who didn't know anything about working in a fine dining restaurant. Well we were both wrong, and we both tore shit up at the Cliffhouse. I'll never forget those days, they were some of the best I ever had.

I'm just so sad, angry, dumbfounded by your choice to give up. You had so much to fight for, and I'm pissed we'll never argue over the bronco's and chargers again. Or go watch a Mariners game only to spend the entire time arguing over who has better taste in women.

I'll miss you man..

Donec iterum conveniant