Another chill week

I've been living the life of an ass-doctor for the last few weeks and I've got to say that it's pretty awesome. It's a lot like urology. Lots of cancer, for the most part pretty healthy and lots of big and small life-changing surgeries. Life is pretty good, can't complain.

On urology, we keep things pretty chill.











My mom has been wanting to attach this little furry thing to my rotating surgery pager. She wants me to get beaten up and clowned at work.






-bender

Keep Hope Alive.....

So I see you've had a rough stretch. Well don't beat yourself up man, you are and always will be superman in my eyes. You and you're peers take a licking and keep on tickin, which is more than 99% people could say. Just put your head down, and keep on keeping on. It doesn't matter how many losses you take, because the one life you save makes up for it. Try not to focus on the bad, but just remember all the good, and how it can feel when you can heal a person. That's a feeling I can never know, or experience. So treasure it, because it's a beautiful thing, and something you won't feel if you become jaded to all this stuff.

Sorry if I sound preachy or something, I just think it's awesome how much you are accomplishing. Kinda makes what I do feel a little insignificant, but hey, I like my simple life.

I've been working my butt off and just trying to forget what's going on around the world right now. I have an awesome chef and a shitty GM, but I'm just glad I have a job.

Yo Joe!!

damn

Man, it's been a crazy few days. Getting called into the OR in the middle of the night, people tanking on me, etc.

One of my gals is a sick lady in the ICU. Lots of problems, pancreatic cancer s/p whipple procedure, septic shock on pressors, with multisystem organ failure. Basically a lot of badness. As colorectal, we've been getting a lot of pressure to take out the colon because the CT scan looked funny and there was some concern that the bowel might be dead vs infected, causing our lady to be sick. We tried to do a colonoscopy, she got perforated and started leaking ascitic fluid all over our shoes. We rushed her over to the OR, once inside...man, it looked bad. Her whole stomach looked like red jello. Apparently she had been bleeding into her abdomen for a while and the blood was clotted off in her belly. Her bowels basically looked limp, on the way to dead. In the middle of taking out her colon, she started going into V-fib - read dying. We did the whole chest pounding, electricity shocking, epinephrine pushing thing for 45 minutes. Called it at 16:48.

Surgery guys usually will go out for a drink to fight off their aggression. I went down for some pomegranite ice cream with dark chocolate. After that kicked in, I went back to acting like an asshole.

-bender is burning out

It's gonna get worse before it gets better

We've all been seeing the signs coming. All the homes for sale. All of the closing stores. It's getting really bad. Last weekend, I met with some of my college buddies. They're all worried about losing their jobs. The goal for most of their teams is to stay intact through the next fiscal year. These guys were near the top of their class at harvard and NYU law. I'm thankful for my job, and I've been busting my ass for the most part day in and day out.

Anyhow, I've been saving up all of my money for a rainy day in an installment savings account. Turns out my large korean chain bank is closing. I felt terrible about it, but I went to close out my accounts. Better that, than have to deal with FDIC. Anyhow, it felt like the bank run scene in it's a wonderful life.



well, maybe it wasn't that dramatic, but it sure felt like it. Everyone at the bank was there to withdraw their money. The employees all looked pretty disheartened. I didn't have the heart to tell them I was closing my accounts because their bank was gonna tank any day. I looked her in the eye, and lied that I really needed the money. I guess it's not completely a lie. I do need the money, but damn. It's a starting to get ugly.

-bender