Lakers

hey joe,

I'm watching the lakers work on chicago right now. Man, their defense and passing is really looking good. It was kinda ugly in the beginning with nobody scoring, except gasol. Anyhow, I'm liking it. As long as we don't collapse, I think we're looking solid.

-bender

Hate in your heart will consume you too

My parents are cool. They're out hiking in the woods and are doing fine. Maybe a little shaken up in their faith in mankind, but otherwise doing ok. Thanks for the support.

I don't think one wink I slept Wednesday night. I must've murdered in my heart a thousand times that night. I walked into the hospital Thursday morning hoping to see a cholo in the trauma ward guppy breathing his last dying breath or get to assist on another cholo's colostomy after he had his spinal column resected by a bullet fragment. This isn't healthy...it's no good. Neither is it professional. My favorite patient last night on call was a former cholo with terrible metastatic prostate cancer being positive, looking forward to each and every day, and being supportive of me as his doctor despite my ineptitude. I've come to terms with it and am gonna let it go. No guns. I'm opting for a 7 iron and metal drum major's baton. The next time I hear someone getting their ass kicked outside my window, I'm gonna be running out with one of those. No more sitting back and letting people get their asses whooped. Hopefully all those years of kendo back in the day have kept my aim true.

-bender

Damn, why am I in LA...

I'm sitting around waiting for the cops to arrive. My parents got mugged/jumped a little while ago while taking a stroll around the block. Who fucking beats up old people and laughs at them for kicks? Screw the colorful neighborhood bullcrap. This place is full of thugs....damn fucking cholos. Shit. Lets get rid of my fucking drug dealer neighbors too. Fuck this shit. Lets bring back the good ole lynch mob and canes and take back the streets. I'm tempted to buy a gun and join the neighborhood watch nazis in my building...I think it's time to move.

-bender is all out of compassion

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Today is the first day I've had off in the last couple of weeks. Maybe it's the mark of immaturity, but living in the hospital isn't always fun and games. Sometimes, you need to go out, drink yourself silly and make an ass out of yourself after spending another night sleeping in a chair. Usually I'm fine after a meal with friends or a heavy work-out session, but I guess the daily grind is starting to get to me.

I called all of the usual suspects, but everyone I know in the hospital usually is working on Friday night or taking some crappy weekend shift/call. That left me with my gals from high school and their 40 year old boyfriends, random calls to friends I haven't spoken with in ages or another exciting night with mom and pops. Dang...ended up staying up watching grey's anatomy, then crashing early in the evening.

A couple of years ago, I would've been fine hitting up a dive bar by myself and having a beer and some peanuts, while watching the game on the tv. Maybe shoot the breeze with the drunk old man sitting on the stool next to me.

It's the same old story. "We should go out bro! Fo sho'! What are you doing Friday night? Damn, I'm on call man, but we should definitely hang out next week..." Ugh, I've gotta meet some people who don't work at the hospital.

-bender