Friday, March 24, 2006

The mountain is my bitch

So I'm sitting here swelling with pride and a little bit of pain. Went up to sugarbowl today with aseem, dave and jorge. Skied my first black diamond today. I rolled, tumbled and slid my way down. It hurt a lot and it took a really long time. So long that the rest of my party stopped waiting. Anyhow, I went up and did it again just to show that mountain who was boss. For the record, mountain 2, me 0. You just wait, I've got something cooking...

-bender

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Are we a nation that cares that little?

While having dinner last night with my roommate, he started talking about gamey meats. I can't stand lamb, but he loves it. I bailed with some lame excuse about it being cruel to eat babies (rabbit reference) and how I always buy free-range and steroid free shit. That's not always true and he knows it because he goes grocery shopping with me. Anyhow, are we a nation that cares that little? By this, I mean, we aren't grateful when things make sacrifices for us. We're fine with paying 20 cents less to buy eggs from a chicken locked up in a tiny cage it's whole life. We're fine shopping at Walmart and taking away from the salaries and health care benefits of its employees so that we can save a few bucks. Nobody really gives a fuck when we hear about another American soldier who got popped by a middle-eastern national/radical. Some argue that we're de-sensitizedto it. Did anyone really care about the first solder who was killed? Why aren't we eliciting the same response as Vietnam? Now here's the popper. Why did everyone get so fired up and teary-eyed about some bad aramaic translation depicting the so-called passion (serious ass-whooping). Eh, I don't really care. I guess nobody really gives a fuck.

-bonder

bah

so I'm sitting here, and reading Bender's private blog (i know I'm an asshole and shouldn't do it, but I'm bored at work and watched all the movies I had downloaded) and I come across this "wish mo was there" and think to myself... what a fucking schmuck. So just as I'm about to call him up and throttle his pussy ass for being such a whiny little bitch I stopped myself. How can I blame him for being so damn mopey sometimes? As much as we guys try to fight it... we need women, we need the companionship they supply us with. Now not every man has this need at the same time in their life, some guys can go into their 40's without needing a companion and some find that same companionship in the arms of another man (we don't judge here at Iwanttoconquertheworld) but poor Bender is all alone, 450 miles or so away from home, with a couple of med school friends nearby but nothing that makes him feel secure. Even when he's in NY with old Stanford friends he can't forget about the person he once thought of as his partner in crime.

I know it's a pain in the ass breaking up, so much that some people stay together just to avoid the hassle. I hope when I go up and visit Bender I can keep his head off the evil woman who broke his heart on his birthday.... bah humbug to evil women..

Onto another topic... Japan is almsot here.. .WOOT!!

Joe is outties..

Friday, March 17, 2006

cut it off, doc.

Phantom pains. That's the pain that people feel after an amputation. The part is missing, but it still hurts like it's still there. Time heals all wounds.

-bender is sick and tired of looking at powerpoint slides...seriously

Thursday, March 16, 2006

is anyone in the mainstream?

I was just thinking of all the so-called pretty and popular girls that I know. Damn...I wouldn't date or touch any of them with a 10 foot pole. They wear, say and do all of the right things. So mainstream...so boring. I like girls with attitude and flair. Call 'em quirky. Something to ignite the fire within you and sting you with their everlasting fire. Like Joshua tree...except without the cheesy sunglasses. I'm looking for that diamond in the rough.

-bender

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

yesan damen

My high school friend Danny Kwak released his first album.

http://cdbaby.com/cd/yesan

-bender

look what you've started....

So, after reading a bit of the article that Bender linked to (couldn't read the whole thing cuz the whole Santa/North Polism started to annoy the shit out of me) it reminded me a lot about how I feel. I am not an atheist, but I'm not a christian/catholic or whatever the hell they call themselves nowadays (cultmembers if you ask me).

I have a lot of questions that will never be answered, and I question everything anyone has ever told me. If you know me, you'll know that as much as I resent my father for a lot of things, I also look up to him. The one thing I always got from my dad was to question any and everything I'm ever told. My father knew from when I was a youngen I was going to be a troublemaker. He knew that the first time he picked me up and I shat/pissed on him. But I think the reason my father always accepted me was although I wasn't half as smart as him, I was twice as ambitious and 4 times more vocal. I always questioned my teachers, my Priest's, my friends, my family members, everyone. In school I got good grades but not great because I questioned most of my teachers reasoning. If I knew something, I knew it, I didn't need to do 80 questions of the same type of math problem to prove I learned it or didn't learn it. I didn't need to write 8 pages on some fucking play that I hated to prove I understood what some english schmuck was trying to say when I could do it in 2. I have always went with my gut and trusted no one but myself. So naturally... I questioned the existence of God and the truth's in the Bible.


I never agreed with the people who argued darwinism was bullshit, and evolution is wrong. They are wrong and it's been proven as far as I'm concerned. I also don't believe those who say that Dinosaurs and monkeys and all that shit proves God doesn't exist, they are full of shit as well. I stopped believing in the bible years ago. It never made sense to me in my head from the getgo. I know people will disagree with me or come up with some great argument but the proof is in the pudding. God changed from a merciless Deity who would rain down fire and brimstone on heathens in a second. Into a forgiving, benevolent and loving God. I don't know about you... but believing in a being that has the ability to go from loving you to dropping fire and brimstone on your ass the next second just isn't how I want to go about my faith.

The argument that God does not exist, is an even harder argument to make. To say this universe just suddenly came to be... imposible (it's spelled in spanish not a typo).. can't be. Something can NOT come from nothing. So that something that made something... you guessed it, God. Yuppers, I believe he made us.

I do think that we as a whole have made up so much stuff about God that either you become foolheartedly involved in the sacred word (which was written by a man, so there is no real way of knowing whether it's all just made up) of Alla, God, Buddha, whoever you pray to. That you stopped using your head. I have always known that faith is a powerful thing and is very necessary, blind faith is a scary thing and should not be trifled with. However... blind faith is all I see around me, and it scares the hell out of me. These muslims killing people in the name of a God they claim protects them. The christians who kill people in the name of a God they claim protects them, the Jews who do the same. The list goes on and on and on. When was the last time this God they all read about has showed himself? This almighty God they pray to all the time should have the power to take the shape and form of a man... however anytime anyone has ever claimed to be God or Godlike has been found. He's labeled crazy, or a cult leader and usually killed and/or thrown in a luny bin. For all the christians/jews/muslims know... they could have imprisoned their beloved God and cast him off forever forsaking themselves.

Sure the atheist's have some good points but so do the believers. Me, I think they both are wrong about God, but I am not about to define him and force my opinions onto others. We already have enough churches and religions doing that as it is. I just ask you to question what you are fed, because for as long as man has been around and able to remember... the man in power has found a way to suppress the weak-minded and religion has always played a part in every stage of man's history. The entire theme of every religion is always to be content and happy and pray to your God and not worry about riches, because virtue is it's own reward. Sounds fishy to me, sounds like a ploy to keep the rich man rich, and the poor man poor... and happy about being poor.

Joe over and out...

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

atheist's view of world

interesting article

http://www.dailykos.com/storyonly/2005/11/15/12016/649

-bender

Street Philosopher

Somewhere along the hustle and bustle of life, I got lost. I don't remember the exact date, but somewhere along the line, life about to be about just trying to get through the day, rather than being thankful to enjoy another day. That bothers me, but not as much as I hoped it would...which bothers me. :o) Anyhow, it's been one of those interesting weeks. The motherboard on my computer got fried this past Friday, but I wasn't really too upset about it. Monetarily, it's worth more than my car and my guitar combined. However, I think I'd be a lot more upset if I dinged my guitar. I think of computers and technology in general as necessary evils. Lots of med students are rushing to get palms, but I'd rather avoid it altogether if I can manage it. I like biking to work, cooking on gas stoves and leaving my cell phone at home. Anyhow, I digress.

In order to get my notes off of the hard drive on my computer, I went to the tech office at the med school. I asked them to put all of my data on a mp3 player that doubles as my usb drive. This whole week, I've been listening to tons of sermons to make a christian case for homosexuality. Anyhow, it was interesting to see the guy's reaction as he was deleting files on my mp3 player as he tried to make room for my files. MP3 files included, dealing with homosexuality, dealing with being gay...lots and lots more titled that that. He looked uncomfortable. haha. Anyhow, here's what I've been able to come up with.

1. The obsolete purity code. The explicit anti-homosexual lines from the bible come from the old testament books of leviticus and deuteronomy. Those books are about the rules and regulations that god instituted on old school jewish society. Homosexual acts are included with rules like, don't eat pork, don't have sex during menses, don't eat mixed fruits and it's unholy to wear robes made of mixed threads such as polyester. Anyhow, the purity codes were made obsolete by the arrival of Jesus. The moral codes, however remained intact.

2. The Church's double-standard. Jesus never made any comments about gays. He did made multiple arguments saying that divorce and remarriage were really bad. These things are forgiven and allowed in the church. Gays, which Jesus never mentioned is banned by a lot of churches. If the church really believes that being gay is that bad, then the same rules should be applied toward other things. Albeit, this is a weak argument.

3. Problems with translation. Using ancient contemporary sources to decipher colloquial uses, the words used to describe gay sex in the OT was found to be non-specific for gay sex. There are two schools of thought. One was prostitution. Little boys in greece and ancient times were castrated so that they wouldn't develop masculine features and sold as prostitutes to form man-boy relationships so fondly referred to by the great greek philosophers. Another translation says the word most closely resembles masturbation, which was quickly changed by the monks. These hardly refer to contemporary gay sex.

These notes were taken from a pastor's convention from a few years back. Overall, educated pastors view the gay issue as secondary to more important moral codes in the overall emphasis of christianity.

A possible solution - the european model
There is an inherent tension between church and state when our religious leaders wed people by saying "By the power invested in me by the state of California." We should have couples get civil unions at the courthouse, and then get married at the church if they so desire. Churches would have autonomy to perform or decline to perform gay marriages as according to their creed. A lot of gay couples are insulted that they can't get married, but drunk fucks can get hitched in vegas or get married for tax purposes. Lets separate all legal rights due couple from the so-called sanctity of marriage.

More of rights. American is founded on the idea expounded by a group of terrorists who threw tea overboard from a ship - No taxation without representation. Gays are taxed. Now lets represent.

My last comment. I guess I'm not a very religious guy, but somehow I find myself waking up early to go to church every Sunday morning. I go because I'm very aware of the disconnect that exists. When people think of the word evangelical christian - dumb, hick, racist, narrow-minded, bush supporting, war waging, people who's names rhyme with chop suey come to mind. When people say Jesus Christ, I think compassionate, intellectual, self-sacrificing, loving, etc. I don't really affiliate with the church, but I wouldn't mind aligning myself with Jesus Christ.

Aiite. Off ma soap box. peace.

-Bender

p.s. - john lennon was wrong.

Friday, March 10, 2006

One up on ya

Starters
C - Brad Miller
PF - Chris Bosh/Pau Gasol/Antawn Jamision...I can't decide. bruhaha
SF - Carmelo Anthony
SG - Kobe Bryant
PG - Gilbert Arenas

Backup
C - Jason Collins
PF - see above
SF - Josh Howard
SG - Michael Redd
PG - Kirk Hinrich

haha. I'm still working on Paul Pierce, Ron Artest ,AK-47 and getting a superstar center.

-bender out

Thursday, March 09, 2006

My NBA 2K6 lineup... W/ Trade and Cap restrictions

Ok, so playing a game made for a MAN's Man, with actual simulation and realistic gameplay. Here is my superstar lineup...

Starters

PG: Luke Ridnour
SG: Kobe Bryant
SF: Josh Howard
PF: E. Griffin
C: Yao "motherfucking" Ming

Backup

PG: Steve Blake
SG: Shaun Livingston
SF: Devean George/Reggie Evans
PF: Nick Collison
C: Chris Mihm

And sitting on the bench just in case a big man goes down is Danny Fortson, and Kwame Brown. And buried and never playing is Anthony Peeler

Not an all star by no means. But considering I have restrictions and limitations, and I started off with the Lakers... that is by far the most UBERLICIOUS team. And if I had that shitty ass Live game, My starting lineup would be way better than that garbage you got going for you buddy.

P.S. Tonight I am going to acquire Hinrich or Howard, possibly both.

my lineup nba live 06

Starters:
C - Brad Miller
PF - Chris Bosh
SF - Peja Stoya...shit You know him.
SG - Kobe Bryant
PG - Gilber Arenas

My Bench
C - Jason Collins
PF - Carlos Boozer
SF - Josh Howard
SG - Josh Childress
PG - Kirk Hinrich

You know my team is the shit
oh, and Casey Jacobsen is sitting on the bench...forever. haha.

-bender

Saturday, March 04, 2006

how did this happen?

Do you ever find that you've become your father? Not in the incestuous Futurama kind of way, but the way that as a kid you used to think, damn my dad is a freak. Is it in the genes? Is it the kimchi that I ate? Damn...I guess that's just fate. Hopefully I'll have a six-pack in my 50s like my dad did. =D

bender